Behind the story

Most Malaysian will know about our darkest history after independence on May 13, 1969, the racial violence that claim hundreds of casualties.
Officially, 196 people were killed between 13 May and 31 July 1969, as a result of the riots, although journalists and other observers have stated much higher figures.

Why 513 tragedy will happen? Whose fault? Who can I blame?

" Don't blame the Chinese. Don't blame the Malays. Don't blame the Indians either. Blame all three; the Malays, Chinese and Indians. All are to be faulted. All must be blamed. And blame the gangs and secret societies for enforcing this segregation and territorial wars. And blame the government for losing control of the streets to the gangs and secret societies."- Raja Petra Kamaruddin

Why does time go so slow when you're sad and so fast when you're happy?


20 May, 1969. The day should be my memorable day in my life. I want to be a beautiful bride, live forever with my lovely hubby. We build our own family, with our child, spend the time with families.
But it just a dream, an unrealizable dream. The 513 tragedy destroy my dream.

Although we are not same race but it doesn't become a problem between us. Most of the time we speak in Malay and English, sometimes he also speak Chinese but his slang always make me laugh.

May 13, 9pm. I receive a bad news said that Zul and few of his friends have been killed on the way back home.I was shocked and faint.
I never talk anything since the tragedy happened and it has been maintain for few months until the day, everyone realize that I'm gone.
I wrote a letter and put in on my bed.

My love, you never know how much I love you. I can't describe my feeling when I lost you forever. My mind was blank. I'm mad and try to blame someone who causes your death, but I know it is nonsense. Sometimes I wish I could forget anything happen here, and then I'm still the one who lives happily. Dear, I miss you so much. How could you leave me alone? We are going to have a wedding soon but now.... I'm alone. I'm sorry dear. I'm not enough brave to see you for the last time. I was afraid to attend your funeral. You won't blame me right? I know it because you love me. Goodbye my love...
I'm leaving now. I want go to a place which is nobody knows me. Sorry papa mama.I can't comply the basic requirement as a daughters. Please take care of yourself. I will be back and I love you...Sorry for everything and forgive me for leaving without any words.
---- Your lovely daughter

I will never forget you but I have to let you go.

I have a Dream

I have a dream,
A song to sing,
To help me cope with everythingggg

Everyone have a dream.
No matter the dream will come true or not, people still dream about it.
I have my own dream too.
Although my dream didn't come true but I still feel good about it.

I love to read novel and watch drama.
Sometimes I wish that I could be an actress, the novel characters, or maybe I can become "another person".
Everyone have a life, and only once.

I wish to experience more people's life but not only MY life.
An actress can act other characters. They need to input their mind and soul into the characters to act it out. I feel that is a great experience in a person's life because he/she can get into another different life althought it just a short term.
Sometimes I really dream about myself in few scene after I read a novel or watch a drama.
It's unbelieveable for me but I really dream about it.

Besides that, I wish that I could get an auto fit size fashion clothes.
Why I will have this kind of dream？
Well, I really have some trouble about this.
Everytime when I saw some nice clothes in shopping mall, but I can't buy it. Why?
Although the clothes look nice but not really suitable for me.
I'm a fatty girl? Not really but I still can slim more if possible.
My body shape doesn't allow me to wear some clothes.
If really have the auto fit size clothes, I think it really 
make people more conveniently.

" You hate your life, while some people dream of having your life"
No matter what dream that I dreaming now, I'm still satisfy with my life.
At least I live better than a lot of other people right？
We should cherish our life as it is short :)

My life with TV

"Stop watching TV! You spend too much time on it! "

My parents always scold me when I'm still a kids.
I spend most of the time with TV and even I was eating and or doing homework.
I started to wear spectacles when I'm 7 years old.
My mum said that this is because I watch too much TV.
Hmmm, but I still love to watch TV.

Most of the people own a TV in their home. My dad always watch TV news at 8pm. I still remember that I always fight with him to get the remote control because I want watch my drama too.

 

Time flies and TV change. It become more quality than past.
The signal always good and more convenient.
However, do people still watch TV now since we have internet and others gadgets to watch what you want.
TV still is a traditional channel that has been around for a long period time.
People watch it not only because of the content, but it is more towards to habit that has been carried forward since childhood and also the perception that TV provides a higher level assurance.

Your Decision Change My life

 
This stunning novel begins on a winter night in 1964, when a blizzard forces Dr. David Henry to deliver his own twins. His son, Paul born first, is perfectly healthy, but the doctor immediately recognizes that his daughter, Phoebe has Down syndrome. For motivates he tells himself are good, he makes a split- second decision that will haunt all their lives forever. He asks his nurse, Caroline to take the baby away to an institution and explain that the death of his sister nearly destroyed their mother and he doesn't want Norah to go through that. Instead, she dissapears into another city to raise the child as her own.


This is a novel I  bought recently.
It quite interesting and it was fun to imagine myself as the characters.
This was a fairly emotional read, and I found myself sympathising with the characters at some points, and hating them at others. 
It's called The Memory Keeper's Daughter because David takes up photography and becomes obsessed with the process. Diving into his hobby, which ultimately brings notoriety to him, he is able to take his mind off his secret, and yet at the same time, focus on the life his lost daughter leads away from him. Photography/snapshots/captured moments are the metaphor for this family and this beautifully written story. (Michele, 2008)
David's makes a split - second decision to send the baby girl away but he was trapped by the silence and awkwardness in his entire life.
Sometimes I find myself thinking what would I do if this happened to me?
Unfortunately, I was stuck in the middle part but I will continue read it once I'm free.

This novel was published in 2006 and a movie was filmed in 2008. 
I was excited when I know this!!
I still prefer movie than books but anyway, I still love books.

 

Due to the modern era, I think most of the people not really want to get books anymore but it cannot be denied that a lot of the movie came from novel.
Some writer wrote a book, after that only publish it as a movie.
Twilight and Harry Potter is one of the good example.

 If you think reading is boring, you're doing it wrong.
Spend some time with books! You will enjoy it.


 

1st Magazine

This is the first time I bought a ENGLISH magazine.

Hello! Magazine Malaysia October 2012

I went to MPH bookstore to find a magazine that I interest.
After take a look around the bookstore, I decide to buy this magazine.
It cost RM9.90 ( I know it quite expensive)
Why I pick this magazine?

At first, I've been attracted by the cover, Prince William and Kate.
I know them have a tour in Malaysia, so this is the chance to let me know about their trip by buying the magazine.

Besides that,I also have been attracted by the " The World In Pictures" section.
It shows some interesting news that happened throughout the world with a combination with pictures and a short description.

The World In Pictures

Lastly, I bought the magazine is because of THIS!!!!!
Hohoho, this is Wedding Reader's Special section.
Those wedding pictures is a monthly selection from readers.They want to share their happiness to all of the Hello! magazine readers.

"Love look not with the eyes, but with the mind" - William Shakespeare

I can feel their happiness from their smile :)
For those who was chosen will receive special gifts and it cost more than hundred.
Before that I've read some Chinese wedding magazine. I love their creativity of editing the wedding pic and then I will share it some idea to my friends.

Wedding Reader's Special

It is a new experience for me to read English magazine but I really bought the magazine again when I saw it in bookstore.

Hello! magazine Malaysia Nov 2012

Film Maker

Well, this is the first time I need to shoot a video. Normally I shoot video just for fun but now it's a proper video that we need to make it.  I watch a lot movies and also have pay some attention for the camera angles but I never know the briefly knowledge about it. This is an interesting lecture for me.

Our video is a sitcom drama and we just think about kidnapping. After we started brainstorming, finally we come out a story. Basically our story is about the two guys failed their mission because of kidnapping the wrong girl. At last they come out a plan to rob a rich millionaire theater.

During our shooting process, a lot of idea have pop out and we have fun with it
We use few camera angles to shoot it such as Very Wide Shot, Medium Shot, Close Up and more.
Stay tuned.

Live long enough to find the right one

Social Learning Theory
Coined by Albert Bandura in the 60s, social learning theory focuses on the learning that occurs (in real life or via media) within a social context.It considers that people learn from one another through observational learning, imitation, and modeling.

 

Did you still remember that we have watched few advertisement in our lecture class?
For those two advertisement it might me 18SX for some people, but it is an awareness advertisement to let the society alert about this issue, AIDS.

It has a good message and she not a quote like some of you are thinking if you would have payer attention in the beginning she was picked on by boys when she was younger. So she started off with low self esteem. Then when she entered adulthood she desperate to find Mr. Right that she meet at every man she thought was Mr.Right.At least she knew enough to protect herself.
Besides that, the second advertisement is also an awareness advertisement to society. In fact, gay and lesbian are common in every where now.I don't think that we should look down of them.We should protect ourselves when we're having sex relationship.
To be frankly, the BEST way to avoid AIDS or any sexually transmitted disease is to wait for sex after marriage and to only have one sexual partner and that is your husband/wife.

Society will alert about this issue through the observation of this ads.
It might be leave some impact in their mind.
In their unconscious mind, people will think before they do that.
This is what we say as Social Learning Theory.

On the other hand, let's know more about World AIDS Day  

World AIDS Day, observed on 1 December every year, is dedicated to raising awareness of the AIDS pandemic caused by the spread of HIV infection.
AIDS has killed more than 25 million people between 1981 and 2007 and an estimated 33.2 million people worldwide live with HIV as of 2007 making it one of the most destructive epidemics in recorded history. Despite recent, improved access to antiretroviral treatment and care in many regions of the world, the AIDS epidemic claimed an estimated 2 million lives in 2007 of which about 270,000 were children.

Uses and Gratifications Approach

Withdrawal

At times, people use the mass media to create a barrier between themselves and other people or activities.
The media help people avoid certain chores that should be done; in this manner tasks might be put off or avoided entirely.

I always do that.
No matter where am I,If I'm alone, I must have earphones in my ear to listen to the music or radio.
Actually I didn't mean want to create a barrier between me and others but it just a habit.

I do that when I'm in bus, KTM and other public transport.

Did you do this? I'm the one too

Daily supply

Newspaper?
Newspaper?
Newspaper!
Hmmm, I keep on learning about newspaper recently.

A newspaper is a printed publication containing news, information and advertising, usually printed on
recycled, low-cost paper known as newsprint.

Newspaper have become a daily supply in our life.
For me, my home have few of newspaper such as China Press, The Star and Sinchew in 1 day.
Actually I don't know why my dad wanna bought so much newspaper but it seem he read it everyday.
So, let it be...

The Star

 

Sin Chew & China Press

To let you all know that for chinese paper have 2 edition in a day, evening edition and morning edition.
An evening newspaper is published in the afternoon (it's called "evening" because people read it when they get home from work). The reporters must finish their stories in the morning. In the afternoon, reporters work on stories for the next day.
A morning paper is published in the middle of the night. Reporters turn in their stories the afternoon before it goes to press, or evening at the latest (at least that's the way it is with small-staff papers).
For example, today is Sept of 28, you can buy a newspaper which is evening edition for tomorrow, Sept of 29. You also can buy a newspaper too which is morning edition on Sept of 29.
There are advantages and disadvantages to both. Afternoon paper often had fresher news than the morning paper because when something happened in the morning, it was in that evening's paper.
On the other hand, if something happened in the afternoon, the morning paper would publish the news first.

Due to the modern era, the way people read newspaper are extremly changed, we not only have the printed newspaper, we also have online newspaper also.
Online newspaper can be updated immediately so people would have the latest information. It also can be more interactive and include different things such as video and audio which is print newspaper have to rely on word and pictures.

My first time went for the online newspaper is because of the election. I keep on looking for the latest news and watch some video they have been provided. It's awsesome. But most of the time I still more prefer print newspaper. I can get it from my home as newspaper was needed for my family. I didn't like spend extra time on electronic devices such as Ipad, Laptop since I had used it much due to some works.

My drama teacher - The Star

my drama performance- Sin Chew

My secondary school drama society- Sin Chew

Nowadays, newspaper had become more interesting.
There are always have some game, quiz and other lifestyle news.
I ❤ newspaper.

Boooooooooo~

A great experience and I have fun through the game , Taboo.

Taboo

Taboo is a word guessing party game published by Hasbro in 1989.
The objective of the game is for a player to have his/her partner(s) guess the word on his/her card without using the word itself or five additional words listed on the card.

This is my 1st time to play this game but actually I had played a game is quite similar with this in Chinese version, mime game.
Taboo is a game that just can talk without actions but mime game is just can do actions without a words.
It quite challenging for me.

I admit that sometimes I quite slow to react something due to my thought process.
It is hard for me to think fast.
Once I looks on the Taboo word I really get stuck, it's difficult to knock my thought process to think out of the box.

There are also have some others board game:

Ludo

Snake and Ladders

Scrabble

Due to the modern era, most of us more indulge with the internet.
Board games have been forgotten through the technology times.
There are many advantages of playing board games

• stress relieve
• development of educational skill
• social and mental development
• improves memory
• best way interaction with family and friends
• build self-confidence

There are just few of the advantages but we know that board games is really worth to play.
Lastly, I wish I could have more chance to play board games with my friends.

Let's play a game now...

Burly butcher is holding a shining knife, he is smiling to the trembling old lady and said : " Let's play a game now! I frighten you and you scream to attract the clown come down.."
Hence, the scream of the old lady can be hear at the corridor in the night.
The next day, everyone have meat to eat but there are a woman is crying because the meat is not the clown but her mother.....

Delicatessen

Delicatessen is a  1991 French film, directed by Jean-Pierre Jeunet and Marc Caro, starring Dominique Pinon and Karin Viard.
It is set in an apartment building in a post-apocalyptic France of an ambiguous time period. The story focuses on the tenants of the building and their desperate bids to survive.

It seem the human has reached of the end of the world, all of the values have changes.
People just want to survive and the only way to survival is eat the human flesh.
The butcher, Clapet, is the leader of the group which strives to keep control and balance in the apartment building. All of the people in the apartment building need to pay the rent to him and he wil provide human flesh to them too.
It really like citizen pay taxes to the goverment and government will offers some benefits to them.

Delicatessen  have show the weakness and cruel of human.
Human are selfish. They will do anything to get what they want.
 This movie didn't shown much the time and location.
It might be happened before and after Second World War in French
Before World War 2: unemployement rate, foodin short supply, grain use as currency
After World War 2: Contact lens, TV and other devices

I realize that the movie most of them are in reddish yellow tone to build up the darkness of the building.
In the end of the movie, the blue sky finally had shown since the butcher was dead. It is a hope.

My favourite part is the ryhtm from few scenes. It has been perfectly match up with the sound and scenes.

This is my first time to watch French movie. It really is a new experience for me :)

Black Swan

Black Swan

Strongly recommended a movie, Black Swan.
Black Swan is a 2010 American psychological thriller and horror film directed by Darren Aronofsky and starring Natalie Portman, Vincent Cassel, and Mila Kunis. 
A ballet dancer wins the lead in "Swan Lake" and is perfect for the role of the delicate White Swan - Princess Odette but slowly loses her mind as she becomes more and more like Odile, the Black Swan.
Black Swan received critical praise upon its release.
The movie receive 5 nominations in Academy Reward (Oscar) and Natalie Portman won the Best Actress too.

Nina (Natalie Portman) is a nature timid cowardly of the white swan and transform into a self-confidence wild charm of the black swan after that become a white swan once again which is on the verge of death.
Once the movie begin, a pair of ballerina feet have been showed. It's a extremly clever irony.
For those who know ballet, we know that although ballerina look nice but the feet is the pain of their heart due to the training. Therefore, their feet is deformity, it is able to be used almost ugly to describe it.
In such a beautiful shoes inside, is a pair of feet that could not be shown.

Did u realize that there are some specific colour to signify something.
White and pink represent the white swan and Nina.
Black represent the black swan, Nina's mum, Lily and Beth
Grey represent the only one actor,Thomas
It's really amazing. The director, Darren Aronofsky had tried to show some meaning by those specific colour.
Other than that, the movie theme,incident that had happened and the character always appear in our daily life but once it match up with the music and visual effects in a good time, it will repeatedly manipulating the audience's emotion.

What is perfect? A lot of people might be think of this question.
The life without regret is it perfect?
Nina pursue to be perfect and she keep on get hurt along the journey.
Due to the modern era, people live in a hustle and bustle city.
People stress while they can't achieved something they expected and some of them most likely will suffer from mental collapse.
This is not a good phenomena.
If they are too engrained and rigid, some problems may arise.

Lastly, a big congratulations in order to Natalie Portman and her longtime beau, Black Swan choreographer and ballet dancer,Benjamin Millepied, who enjoyed a wedding ceremony on Saturday in Big Sur, California.

Wedding

Genre

Genre is a class or category of artistic endeavor having a particular form, content, technique, or the like which have created by Aristotle and Plato.
There are alot type of genre such as genre of music, movie,dance and other.
For some other people, they may say that " No Music No Life" but for me is " No Movie No Life".
Movie are always exist around the world,the trend growth of movie is very strong due to the modern era.
There are alot of movie in the world.
I had tried not to miss any movie but it seem that I really miss alot.
Few genre of movies are action, horror, adventure, comedy, fantasy and more.
I loves any genre of movies just sometime will feel bad for some horror and thriller movie.
It's really disgusting....
For other they may love it much,it depends on each people.

Genre

There are few aspects in movies to define the genre of movies:

• Time
• Location
• Hero
• Heroines
• Villains
• Secondary characters
• Plots
• Themes
• Costume
• Locomotion
• Weaponry

Let's see some example:

Resident Evil: Retribution

Costume?
Weapon?
Location?
From the view of poster, we can know that this is genre of Action, Horror, Science-Fiction movie.

Ted

A bear?
Pee together with you？
This is a Comedy movie.

Actually genre it quite related with semiotics.
It shows some significant to society from those sign.
Lastly, we can't deny that genre really help society to define something easily.

Forever Baraka- Life

If I'm not in Communication Course,
I believe that it's impossible to let me know about this movie - Baraka. 

Baraka is a 1992 non-narrative film directed by Ron Fricke. The title Baraka means blessing in a multitude of languages, deriving from the Arabic بركة, descending from a common Semitic ancestor and cognate to the Hebrew Baruch.

Honestly,  It's hard to tell that which scene was impressive to me, but I love this movie.
In modern life, we live in city and always busy in our life.
We just live in our own world.
Did we stop our steps and take a look around the world?
If you missed it, you might be regret in your whole life.

In a moment, I realize that all of us are just a tiny symbol in this world, like the chicks born, busy city and emphemeral nature.
Everyone have their own view to this world, not all of us will respect, appreciate to other countries religion and culture.
Look attentively around the world,
Understand the meaning of your own life,
Life flows like a river, it won't stop and return back.No matter rich or poor, happy or sad, the day still has to go. 

Don't need keep on think what the movie trying to show us, just watch and feel the greatness of universe, unlimited potential of human and nature.Thats all.

It's time to begin to reflect.Reflect on ourselves and the world.
It will become a better life :)

Why do we watch what we watch

This is my 1st time touch up with media literacy.

I feel like want to shout OMG because its quite confusing me.

I still try hard to catch up on this.

Frustation over communication styles can be heightened in this age of technology.

We always get more message from Internet compare to communicate face to face.

Alot of message have been spread through different channel such as newspaper,internet,radio and more.

We need different sets of skills and ability to process the message from different types of channel.

There are a few element that I can get from this movie

Let's see it !

 

Titanic Trailer

Titanic is a 1997 American epic romantic disaster film directed by James Cameron and its release again in 3D on 2012.

It's a hot and popular movie among us.

First, we know that this is a love movie and they are facing a criticial situation.

It will give an awareness to individual and society.

We enjoy watching this movie but did we understand and appreciate it?

We should have the ability to approach it from a variety directions and derive from it many levels of meaning.

Therefore,we will get our own meaning and make for our enjoyment or appreciation.

Besides we watch this movie,we try to understand the intent and impact of film and video conventions such as camera angles and lighting.

Otherwise meaning is made for us but the interpretation will then rest with its creator, not with us.

I'm sure this movie may touch our hearts, maybe not all of them.

But we react emotionally for pleasure does not mean they don’t have serious meanings and implications in our lives.

We can ask, “Why does this movie make me feel this way?”

Maybe you have understand the feeling that the actor show it in the movie?

Or you really get the message?

"Titanic" have show their short and splendid life,reveal the human dark side and extol infinite potential of human spirit.

It have show me the truth that we should appreciate and treasure our life.

It not just only a movie, it's also a pheomenon which have give a feeling that the dream could not be achieved in reality, especially the love story.

In a nutshell, a critical thinking skill enabling audience members to develop independent judgments about it.
Thinking critically about the content we consume is essentially media literacy.

Watch carefully,Think critically