Behind the story

Most Malaysian will know about our darkest history after independence on May 13, 1969, the racial violence that claim hundreds of casualties.
Officially, 196 people were killed between 13 May and 31 July 1969, as a result of the riots, although journalists and other observers have stated much higher figures.

Why 513 tragedy will happen? Whose fault? Who can I blame?

" Don't blame the Chinese. Don't blame the Malays. Don't blame the Indians either. Blame all three; the Malays, Chinese and Indians. All are to be faulted. All must be blamed. And blame the gangs and secret societies for enforcing this segregation and territorial wars. And blame the government for losing control of the streets to the gangs and secret societies."- Raja Petra Kamaruddin

Why does time go so slow when you're sad and so fast when you're happy?


20 May, 1969. The day should be my memorable day in my life. I want to be a beautiful bride, live forever with my lovely hubby. We build our own family, with our child, spend the time with families.
But it just a dream, an unrealizable dream. The 513 tragedy destroy my dream.

Although we are not same race but it doesn't become a problem between us. Most of the time we speak in Malay and English, sometimes he also speak Chinese but his slang always make me laugh.

May 13, 9pm. I receive a bad news said that Zul and few of his friends have been killed on the way back home.I was shocked and faint.
I never talk anything since the tragedy happened and it has been maintain for few months until the day, everyone realize that I'm gone.
I wrote a letter and put in on my bed.

My love, you never know how much I love you. I can't describe my feeling when I lost you forever. My mind was blank. I'm mad and try to blame someone who causes your death, but I know it is nonsense. Sometimes I wish I could forget anything happen here, and then I'm still the one who lives happily. Dear, I miss you so much. How could you leave me alone? We are going to have a wedding soon but now.... I'm alone. I'm sorry dear. I'm not enough brave to see you for the last time. I was afraid to attend your funeral. You won't blame me right? I know it because you love me. Goodbye my love...
I'm leaving now. I want go to a place which is nobody knows me. Sorry papa mama.I can't comply the basic requirement as a daughters. Please take care of yourself. I will be back and I love you...Sorry for everything and forgive me for leaving without any words.
---- Your lovely daughter

I will never forget you but I have to let you go.

I have a Dream

I have a dream,
A song to sing,
To help me cope with everythingggg

Everyone have a dream.
No matter the dream will come true or not, people still dream about it.
I have my own dream too.
Although my dream didn't come true but I still feel good about it.

I love to read novel and watch drama.
Sometimes I wish that I could be an actress, the novel characters, or maybe I can become "another person".
Everyone have a life, and only once.

I wish to experience more people's life but not only MY life.
An actress can act other characters. They need to input their mind and soul into the characters to act it out. I feel that is a great experience in a person's life because he/she can get into another different life althought it just a short term.
Sometimes I really dream about myself in few scene after I read a novel or watch a drama.
It's unbelieveable for me but I really dream about it.

Besides that, I wish that I could get an auto fit size fashion clothes.
Why I will have this kind of dream？
Well, I really have some trouble about this.
Everytime when I saw some nice clothes in shopping mall, but I can't buy it. Why?
Although the clothes look nice but not really suitable for me.
I'm a fatty girl? Not really but I still can slim more if possible.
My body shape doesn't allow me to wear some clothes.
If really have the auto fit size clothes, I think it really 
make people more conveniently.

" You hate your life, while some people dream of having your life"
No matter what dream that I dreaming now, I'm still satisfy with my life.
At least I live better than a lot of other people right？
We should cherish our life as it is short :)

My life with TV

"Stop watching TV! You spend too much time on it! "

My parents always scold me when I'm still a kids.
I spend most of the time with TV and even I was eating and or doing homework.
I started to wear spectacles when I'm 7 years old.
My mum said that this is because I watch too much TV.
Hmmm, but I still love to watch TV.

Most of the people own a TV in their home. My dad always watch TV news at 8pm. I still remember that I always fight with him to get the remote control because I want watch my drama too.

 

Time flies and TV change. It become more quality than past.
The signal always good and more convenient.
However, do people still watch TV now since we have internet and others gadgets to watch what you want.
TV still is a traditional channel that has been around for a long period time.
People watch it not only because of the content, but it is more towards to habit that has been carried forward since childhood and also the perception that TV provides a higher level assurance.

Your Decision Change My life

 
This stunning novel begins on a winter night in 1964, when a blizzard forces Dr. David Henry to deliver his own twins. His son, Paul born first, is perfectly healthy, but the doctor immediately recognizes that his daughter, Phoebe has Down syndrome. For motivates he tells himself are good, he makes a split- second decision that will haunt all their lives forever. He asks his nurse, Caroline to take the baby away to an institution and explain that the death of his sister nearly destroyed their mother and he doesn't want Norah to go through that. Instead, she dissapears into another city to raise the child as her own.


This is a novel I  bought recently.
It quite interesting and it was fun to imagine myself as the characters.
This was a fairly emotional read, and I found myself sympathising with the characters at some points, and hating them at others. 
It's called The Memory Keeper's Daughter because David takes up photography and becomes obsessed with the process. Diving into his hobby, which ultimately brings notoriety to him, he is able to take his mind off his secret, and yet at the same time, focus on the life his lost daughter leads away from him. Photography/snapshots/captured moments are the metaphor for this family and this beautifully written story. (Michele, 2008)
David's makes a split - second decision to send the baby girl away but he was trapped by the silence and awkwardness in his entire life.
Sometimes I find myself thinking what would I do if this happened to me?
Unfortunately, I was stuck in the middle part but I will continue read it once I'm free.

This novel was published in 2006 and a movie was filmed in 2008. 
I was excited when I know this!!
I still prefer movie than books but anyway, I still love books.

 

Due to the modern era, I think most of the people not really want to get books anymore but it cannot be denied that a lot of the movie came from novel.
Some writer wrote a book, after that only publish it as a movie.
Twilight and Harry Potter is one of the good example.

 If you think reading is boring, you're doing it wrong.
Spend some time with books! You will enjoy it.


 

1st Magazine

This is the first time I bought a ENGLISH magazine.

Hello! Magazine Malaysia October 2012

I went to MPH bookstore to find a magazine that I interest.
After take a look around the bookstore, I decide to buy this magazine.
It cost RM9.90 ( I know it quite expensive)
Why I pick this magazine?

At first, I've been attracted by the cover, Prince William and Kate.
I know them have a tour in Malaysia, so this is the chance to let me know about their trip by buying the magazine.

Besides that,I also have been attracted by the " The World In Pictures" section.
It shows some interesting news that happened throughout the world with a combination with pictures and a short description.

The World In Pictures

Lastly, I bought the magazine is because of THIS!!!!!
Hohoho, this is Wedding Reader's Special section.
Those wedding pictures is a monthly selection from readers.They want to share their happiness to all of the Hello! magazine readers.

"Love look not with the eyes, but with the mind" - William Shakespeare

I can feel their happiness from their smile :)
For those who was chosen will receive special gifts and it cost more than hundred.
Before that I've read some Chinese wedding magazine. I love their creativity of editing the wedding pic and then I will share it some idea to my friends.

Wedding Reader's Special

It is a new experience for me to read English magazine but I really bought the magazine again when I saw it in bookstore.

Hello! magazine Malaysia Nov 2012

Film Maker

Well, this is the first time I need to shoot a video. Normally I shoot video just for fun but now it's a proper video that we need to make it.  I watch a lot movies and also have pay some attention for the camera angles but I never know the briefly knowledge about it. This is an interesting lecture for me.

Our video is a sitcom drama and we just think about kidnapping. After we started brainstorming, finally we come out a story. Basically our story is about the two guys failed their mission because of kidnapping the wrong girl. At last they come out a plan to rob a rich millionaire theater.

During our shooting process, a lot of idea have pop out and we have fun with it
We use few camera angles to shoot it such as Very Wide Shot, Medium Shot, Close Up and more.
Stay tuned.

Live long enough to find the right one

Social Learning Theory
Coined by Albert Bandura in the 60s, social learning theory focuses on the learning that occurs (in real life or via media) within a social context.It considers that people learn from one another through observational learning, imitation, and modeling.

 

Did you still remember that we have watched few advertisement in our lecture class?
For those two advertisement it might me 18SX for some people, but it is an awareness advertisement to let the society alert about this issue, AIDS.

It has a good message and she not a quote like some of you are thinking if you would have payer attention in the beginning she was picked on by boys when she was younger. So she started off with low self esteem. Then when she entered adulthood she desperate to find Mr. Right that she meet at every man she thought was Mr.Right.At least she knew enough to protect herself.
Besides that, the second advertisement is also an awareness advertisement to society. In fact, gay and lesbian are common in every where now.I don't think that we should look down of them.We should protect ourselves when we're having sex relationship.
To be frankly, the BEST way to avoid AIDS or any sexually transmitted disease is to wait for sex after marriage and to only have one sexual partner and that is your husband/wife.

Society will alert about this issue through the observation of this ads.
It might be leave some impact in their mind.
In their unconscious mind, people will think before they do that.
This is what we say as Social Learning Theory.

On the other hand, let's know more about World AIDS Day  

World AIDS Day, observed on 1 December every year, is dedicated to raising awareness of the AIDS pandemic caused by the spread of HIV infection.
AIDS has killed more than 25 million people between 1981 and 2007 and an estimated 33.2 million people worldwide live with HIV as of 2007 making it one of the most destructive epidemics in recorded history. Despite recent, improved access to antiretroviral treatment and care in many regions of the world, the AIDS epidemic claimed an estimated 2 million lives in 2007 of which about 270,000 were children.